My heart goes out to anyone who has lost a child. It is difficult to lose our loved ones, regardless of how old they are, but losing a child is really devastating, even when you believe in God and the Afterlife. I have never gotten angry at God for calling Tanner to his Heavenly Home. I figured, God has HIS reasons. God is perfect. HE doesn't make mistakes. Someday, I will understand HIS reasons.
Starting at the age of 11, I felt so uncomfortable during the entire month of March. I felt so uneasy. I could sense that something traumatic would happen to me, in the month of March. I didn't know what year, nor what day, I would experience this tragedy. This intuitive feeling stayed with me for many years.
On January 23, 2003, I gave birth to twin boys. I have always had easy pregnancies before, but with my twin boys, my one twin son's sac had too much water. I developed polyhydramnios. I went into premature labor. My boys were born at 25.2 weeks. They only weighed 1 lb. each. My one son, Tyler, was in the hospital for 8 months before he came home. My other son, Tanner, was in the hospital for over a year. I had nursing care for both boys when they came home. Even though I had nurses, I still had to be trained by the Children's Hospital Staff, to take care of my special needs children. My son, Tanner, was trached and vented for the first two years of his life. I learned how to take care of Tanner with his trache. Both of my boys had feeding tubes placed in their stomachs. I had learned how to feed them with the feeding tube.
One of the days, I didn't have nurses, Tyler was taking a nap in his bed. I brought my son, Tanner, who was awake, into my bed. My twins were 3 years old at the time. Tanner dozed back off to sleep. All of a sudden, his entire body started to tremble. It looked like Tanner had a seizure. He stopped breathing. I remember calling 911 and the EMTs arriving and trying to revive Tanner. They transported Tanner to the hospital. I could not go with Tanner, since I had no one to watch Tyler. The rest of the day is a blur. I don't remember anything else on that tragic day. My son Tanner died in March. I do remember saying to myself, " This must be the tragic event that I had an intuitive feeling about for many years " . I had also captured a picture of Spirits, prior to Tanner's passing. I believe the Spirits were giving me a warning about Tanner's impending death. At Tanner's funeral, I was too emotional to speak. Before his service started, I was sitting with my other family members. When the service started, I pulled my chair up to my son's open casket and held his hand for the entire service. I kept my eyes glued on Tanner's face for the entire service. I cried the whole time. After the service was over, walking away from Tanner, was so difficult and heartbreaking. Tanner had a brain bleed at birth, from being born too soon. His area of the brain that controls his breathing was starting to shrink. Tanner had atrophy of the brain. One second he was breathing. The next second Tanner stopped breathing. Tanner was such a vibrant child, even with his medical issues.
On another blog, on here, I wrote about how I repeatedly asked for a sign from the Spirit World, that my son Tanner was ok. I had asked this on the evening, after my son's funeral service. My Mom and my Aunt came over to my place, after the service. My Mom was asleep in the chair. I was restless. My Aunt listened to me continue to ask the Spirits, to show me a sign, that Tanner was ok. After asking this insistently for a while, at 12 midnight, my lights went out. We learned that my Mom's lights went out as well. She lived next door to me at that time. Our lights stayed out from 12 midnight to 3 am. I called the electric company. They couldn't explain why we didn't have electric. I was shocked to learn that all the other homes in our development never lost their electric! I enthusiastically shouted, " Tanner is ok! " That was my sign from the Spirits!!! I felt a strong presence. My Mom woke up to hear me laughing hysterically. Both my Mom and Aunt were stunned. The Spirits were trying to comfort me through my grief and sorrow.
I am so thankful that Tanner's Spirit does appear to me. I know that Tanner watches over his brother and our entire family. We love Tanner so much. Tanner only learned one word and that was " Mom " . Hearing Tanner call me " Mom " , was a very special moment for me. Tanner was like an old soul. He loved opera.
Here is a picture of Tanner, on Groundhog's Day, one month before his sudden passing. He was and still is a happy boy.
I have been thinking about my Uncle Nicky, who passed away in the 50s, many years before I was born. Uncle Nicky was a vibrant, energetic boy who loved to sing and dance to Elvis Presley's music.
When my Uncle was in school, his teacher asked him why he didn't want to go outside for recess. He peered out the window and told the teacher, " They are coming to get me. " Uncle Nicky could see Spirits.
A week later, my Uncle Nicky died from the flu. He was 6 years old. My Grandmother would see her Son, Nicky, after he passed away. There is no doubt in my mind that my Uncle Nicky is one of the many Spirits who visits me. Your relatives in Heaven are visiting you too.
I believe that when Spirits appear to us, it doesn't always mean that they are coming for us, to escort us to Heaven. Most Spirits are here to watch over us, guide and comfort us. The majority of Spirits don't want to cause us harm. Many Spirits like to be validated and appreciate the attention we give them. They enjoy interacting with us.
Have you had Spirits communicate to you through your dreams? You may have assumed the dreams were created by your wild imagination. I know that we all have had Spirits visit us in our dreams. Spirits will sometimes appear to you, in your dreams, to simply say "Hello" . Other times, Spirits may give you advice or even warn you about an upcoming event that will happen in your life.
The other night, a male Spirit visited me in my sleep. He told me that we are going to the Hopeless Hills. I didn't know what he was talking about, nor did I ask him. I woke up shortly after he announced that.
When I woke up, I was curious about the Hopeless Hills. I looked that up on the internet. I found a link called Daily Devotion-Hopeless Hills. I had a very strong intuition to open this link. I am so happy that I did.
I started to read a Devotional written by a Biblical Missionary. This author wrote about having tombs in our hearts that we have buried. These "tombs" are our life's dreams/plans that we have given up on for one reason or another. It was a brief Devotional, but the words were so powerful, I shed some tears. I could relate to what the author wrote, since I have given up on accomplishing some of my life's dreams, due to my life's challenges. I am thankful for my challenges, but thought that some of my life's dreams could be out of my reach. I buried some of my life's dreams. I gracefully accepted the idea that I may not be able to fulfill some of my life's dreams, without becoming bitter. God's plans for me are always better than my plans.
This Devotional reassured me that just as God has the ability to resurrect the dead, God also has the ability to resurrect our life's dreams, even if we assumed they were dead! I am so thankful that this Spirit visited me, in my sleep, to give me great advice and encouragement when I really needed it.
After I finished reading the Devotional, I knew there were Spirits present. I told them that I believe that they wanted me to read the Hopeless Hills Devotional. I thanked them and then asked them to show me a sign, confirming what I believed. All of a sudden, a small yellow Spirit orb appeared before me!!! They surely showed me a sign!
The Spirits never cease to amaze me and take my breath away with how they can communicate from the Spirit World. These Spirits are so special.
Whenever Spirits visit you in your dreams, they are trying to tell you something of great importance. Please pay attention to what they are trying to convey to you. It could change your life and your mindset, for the better!
Clairsentience is a gift that many people have, but is not always recognized. You may believe you are intuitive and rely on your gut instinct, but you could very well be a clairsentient!
Here are the signs of clairsentience...
You can sense other people's emotions and energies around you and even from a distance. You can tell how someone is feeling, even before they tell you. You also have the ability to tell if someone is being dishonest with you.
Have people ever told you that you are too emotional? Since you do feel emotions and energies so strongly, you will be more emotional. I now understand why I am so emotional and sensitive. Clairsentient people are usually very compassionate and empathetic towards others.
When you are a clairsentient, you try to avoid crowds. Crowds will cause you to have a heightened sense of anxiety and feel physically ill. You may also have panic attacks. You are like a sponge. You absorb all the energies around you, positive and negative. You will try to steer clear of negative energies.
As a clairsentient, you may have an introverted personality. I am not embarrassed to say that I am definitely an introvert. I crave peace and harmony and this world is far from that.
You can also sense Spirits around you. You can feel a tickling sensation and pressure on the top of your head. You can feel Spirits touch you. You will get "butterflies" in your stomach when Spirits make contact with you. You will feel a breeze as if someone walked by you, even when you are alone. You know when Spirits are watching you. You will get the chills, even when you are not cold. You can sense changes of the temperature in a room. Spirits do cause a drop of temperature, suddenly.
Clairsentient people enjoy spending time alone as well. This well-needed quiet time helps us process our own emotions and rejuvenates us from all the energies we feel and absorb from the outside world. We love spending time with our pets and enjoy the beauty of nature.
Clairvoyance is a gift that can vary greatly for each person. You may have graphic dreams that you remember when you wake up. You may see flashes of light and movement from your peripheral vision. You may have visions of future events. You may see Spirits within a mist of light, right in front of you, with your own two eyes! This is how most of the Spirits' faces appear to me, within a mist of light. You may see Spirit orbs and streaks of light. Even though I see Spirits, I do not have the ability to foretell people's futures.
People will ask if there is a way to strengthen their clairsentient and clairvoyant abilities. I believe that when Spirits want you to feel their presences and see them, they will permit you to sense them and appear to you. These abilities cannot be forced. When these Spirits started appearing to me, I was simply going about living my life. They approached me. I don't have crystals or a pendulum in my possession. Those items are not needed to contact Spirits. I don't know if my abilities will escalate to another level over time or stay the same. All I can say, is that I am very content and grateful with how I can feel and see these Spirits.
I mostly capture Spirits' faces, but did capture an apparition of a young boy, out in the snow! Here is the picture below. Yellow line points to the top of the Spirit's head. Red line points to their left calf.
Are you trying to contact your loved ones in the Spirit World? Before you try to contact them, free your mind of fear, negativity and skepticism. Negative influences could be a stumbling block for you. When you reach out to them, be patient, kind and respectful. Before my love of my life, Todd, passed away, I asked him to come to me, how the other Spirits do. I know he heard me. Todd did appear to me, several weeks later. He has made his appearance to me three times. The most recent time, I was talking to him about how I know, how much he loved the UFO Documentaries for an entire week. I had the UFO shows on for him all week. Todd appeared to me at the end of the week. We actually had a conversation about his shows and we hugged each other. If you acknowledge your loved one in the Spirit World, it is a matter of time, they will acknowledge you too. Spirits can also try to get our attention through God's Beautiful Creations: Butterflies, Cardinals, Hummingbirds, etc. If any of these are flying over to you very closely, this is your loved one!
You do not have to be a psychic medium to experience what I do. My life changed in a heartbeat. Yours could too. Your life will never be the same. My first paranormal experience happened in 2006, a week before my Son passed away. I was taking a picture of a window box I had hung. Spirits appeared near the window box. One of them had their hands extended out to me. After my deceased twin Son's funeral service. Returning home from my Son's service, I asked repeatedly for my deceased Son to give me a sign, to let me know he is ok. After asking this several times, I lost electricity. My Mom lived next door. She also lost electricity. We walked outside and noticed that all our neighbors had their lights on. Our lights were out for three hours. My Son was three years old when he died. We believe that the lights going out for three hours was our sign that my Son was ok. For many months after that, I would hear popping sounds. I would take pictures when I heard these sounds. Spirit Orbs would appear in my pictures. In September 2014, I started to feel Spirits tickling me. I started taking pictures and videos when I would feel this tickling sensation. I capture Spirits' faces. Some of the Spirits are my deceased relatives. There are many Spirits I don't recognize. The Spirits are with me often. They follow me wherever I go. When I was visiting my relatives, I was talking to them about these Spirits, while we were sitting at the kitchen table. The bananas flew off the fruit arrangement! My relatives were shocked. The Spirits tickle my hair and scalp. The tickling can sometimes feel like a Spirit is tickling my scalp in a circular motion. The Spirits also tap on my head, gently pull on my clothing, turn on my flashlight and turn my TV on and off. I told the Spirits that when they continue to turn my TV on and off, I will record them on an EVP Session. People will ask me how I am able to feel the Spirits' presences. I honestly don't know. I don't know if the Spirits were destined to make their presences known to me at a certain time in my life. I wonder if my brain tumor has made me more sensitive to the Spirits' presences. I believe that the Spirits are here to guide and comfort me. I am so happy and thankful that I can feel and see them.